Monday, January 08, 2007
Why the heck do I even want to blog here? This blog is dead. And oh, Singapore is sooooo boring. MAJOR YAWN.
Oh by the way, Happy New Year's. Damn, time really flies /:
|debbs| 5:18:00 PM|
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
OH MY, WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO MY TAGBOARD?
Suddenly it's become a friggin private thing, and I SWEAR I DID NOT EVEN TOUCH THIS BLOODY BLOG since the last time I blogged.
My my, I wonder if someone hacked into this - and if someone did, I have a good feeling I know who it is.
Anyway, whatever it is, I'm not too bothered. One day when I can be stuffed I will revamp this old blog of mine - just give me a period of 3 months to get down to that or something, LOL /:
If you wanna read all my latest crap, once again, the link is:
http://debfang.spaces.live.com/TILL NEXT TIME, I'M OUT Y'ALL!
And if someone really hacked into my blog here, I just wanna say "Am I really THAT HATEABLE? WHAT DID I DO TO YOU? I THINK I'VE APOLOGIZED TO ALL THE PEOPLE I HAVE REALLY OFFENDED - AND IF I HAVEN'T, PARDON MY BAD MEMORY, I JUST WANT TO KISS AND MAKE UP - okay, maybe not kiss, but definitely make up!"
Sigh, can we grow up already? 18 is special for a reason - we are legally adults...
|debbs| 9:31:00 PM|
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Can I be your blogging queen?
Like, pretty pleaseeee.
I feel awesome these days. Life has never been better.
Oh, let's wait till I get my results at the end of the semester. I will be eating dust then, damnit!
However, I still say...
"GO ALL THE (SEEMINGLY) INSIGNIFICANT PEOPLE WHO BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES (AND THEIR FUTURE)!"
|debbs| 10:19:00 PM|
Monday, September 04, 2006
I know this is over-said by now, but Australia just lost it's greatest ambassador of all time - Steve Irwin. He embodied everything that was so stereotypically Aussie.
Who else can replace that? To imitate his personality is just to commercialize the man who put "Crikey!" on the world map.
Sigh.
Let us cry for today, and tomorrow we have to move on with life in this cruel world - nobody, nothing, stops for anyone, no matter what. Apparently we have to be unscrupulous to survive in this world...
Or do we?
Hmmmph...
|debbs| 9:33:00 PM|
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
I never thought the time would come, but I am declaring a blogging hiatus for an indefinite period of time.
And that includes blogging here, on my space, on friendster, ANYWHERE.
I am quitting blogging for now, until my soul feels right again.
Why?
I just think I've said enough. Said enough to confuse myself, said enough to confuse people, and it's still in vain. It just goes in circles. And if my words are going to be meaningless to me, meaningless to the masses, I'd rather cease to communicate.
Yes, it has been great blogging all these years. My turbulent youth has mostly been recorded in the most public of all fashions since I was 13. But I guess the time has come to be still, and do major re-evaluation in my life.
And I've lost the plot, so much so that I feel like I want to cut off all communications with the world, and move out into a secluded, pristine environment, live on my own for a bit, and learn to read music, play music, write music, write books, and meditate on God's word, find my purpose in life again, all for an indefinite period of time.
Friends and being social is all very good, but it has it problems. I have placed way too much emphasis on relationships to the extent that the slightest signs of a fading friendship have crushed my very essence. And nobody understands why I work the way I do, and neither do I.
So before I leave to give my mind a holiday (which in itself, is a farce, because I have to think when I study, but that shall be treated as a very different thing altogether), I'm going to say this:
"This time, silence shall reign, because my revelations hold no meaning to your ears and mine."
Thanks everybody for lapping up my crap so eagerly, but I'm just about to allow this mysterious shroud of obscurity take me away. So I can't tell you what to expect from me in future, but whatever it is, I will take my time to figure that out.
|debbs| 8:08:00 PM|
Monday, July 10, 2006
This blog is starting to feel a bit like my private diary, considering how my space is so public and all.
It is nonsense when people say that you can choose who you want to "fall in love" with. If I could do the impossible, I would be the happiest girl on earth, seriously.
And being the obstinate person I am, I don't give everyone a chance to get to know me properly. When I open up to others, the writing is on the wall for those"lucky" individuals.
Since my situation is so messy at the moment, I'm all the more stubborn about allowing any old bastard get pass a certain level of proximity towards me. And this applies to all existing guy friends, minus the one whom I've fallen extremely hard for (yikes, I'm spilling all this crap on the net, but what the heck, nobody cares anymore).
So please, leave me alone. If I'm ever interested in you, I'll drop you a good deal of hints to let you know.
Otherwise, I'd rather be swingin' single all the way to my grave.
|debbs| 5:53:00 AM|
Friday, July 07, 2006
For once, I decided I'd rather blog on this obscure blog of mine, rather than my space.
I'm just thinking. What is it that will make me different from the rest of the world? What is it that will make my life different? What is it that will make me truly satisfied? What is it that will make me stop bothering about what the people around me comment about (me, that is)?
I don't have the answers to any of those questions.
Someone, something is still missing.
I feel like I'm bogged down by something.
Even if I get a job, my mother and my sister will still bitch about me behind my back, and sometimes, blatantly.
Even if I do well in school and get myself places, am I going to be truly happy with my status and my pay and all the material goods I will be able to afford?
Even if Mr Right and I got together, would that mean "happily ever after"?
Even if I was surrounded by the loveliest friends in the world, would that truly make me satisfied?
I can't say a resounding "YES!" to any of those rhetorical questions I'm posing.
Once again, I know deep down, that there is a gap within me.
And I'm slightly downcast by all this.
I don't know, I don't know.
I think I need my God. And I can't afford to sidetrack on this one relationship. And I always do.
SIGH.
|debbs| 4:40:00 PM|